How Do You Differenciate Between The Wise Man And The Jester?

You've heard the expression of hearing someone before you see them but how do you differenciate between your groups of friends or family.

For example In School There's Always:

A Joker
The Nerds
The Popular Crowd Ect,

And Wherever you fit in, But have you actually stood back and looked at where you stand in people's lives and where you are in them.Sometimes this would niggle me and i never know where I stand in someone's mind and as i have gathered most people only want to rub into my affections when they want something, An aspect which i do not think is regarded as "Friendship".

I mean theres a reason things are left in the past and they didn't make it into your future.But even still you wonder how your path sometimes winds up how it does.

I wonder how we gain and lose freindship also. It's hard to try and figure someone out i mean when you are younger you're friends with everyone and it doesn't matter about looks or race.

We're all the same colour when you turn out the lights

The people that I surround myself with the most and spend my time with are the one's who i wonder who i'd be without them. The very few who care and ask you how you are and check out what you're thinking. Because when you're in a state of mind and routine, You can't get out of it no matter how you try but at least there's someone there to wean you out of it one step at a time.

This my friends is called the shoulder to cry on
& i have many of those in my circle of friends but only two who i confide the most in and have shared every thought with, For this I thank them both. Thank you for helping me gather the strength to approach another day when i feel i can't.

I find it hard to be in one place when i've spent too much time thinking so i love grabbing my coat and walking when no-one is around to talk to. I feel sometimes that this is mainly just "Walking Away" without actually attempting to solve what is bothering me. And beyond that it will gather a mountain of thoughts generated at bedtime, a time of rest for most, a photo album of memories for me.This is where my barrier of thought pursues my every movement until i can't possibly be thinking on the bright side of life when there's no such thing...And then it hits.

That. Thats my best friends. They have my back and i most definately have theirs 110%

They're a wall. All those thoughts and memories that are almost too stressful to re-watch in my mind. Poof. Melting away like an icepop in the desert heat.

This is when relief kicks in. When i think that theres no point in even breathing..BAM. They convince me that it gets better and i can love life again and i truly do no matter how many roller-coasters i go on and find it hard getting off.

No matter how hard i think it gets they help me through it.Appearance doesn't matter, It's inside that counts. No race or looks mumbo jumbo. Just who they are inside.

This is how ive figured out that they are forevermore in my Past, Present & Future. Because no matter the build up they catch you when you fall.

Thank you so much Peter & Wilson

Peace & Love

Terri x